The Heat

This heat is killing me
It grows and grows
It takes my breath away
It burns me from inside while outside it is freezing cold
Hurts so much
I write to cool it off
I care not of what you think
For before I cared too much

I tremble under the pressure
I seem to follow patterns that should be broken
Walking in a circle of misery
I shall no longer listen to the heat
Embracing the cold seems a good idea says reason

Maybe on another path I will find happiness
  

Hidden in the soul lays the impatient love... Not ever again

Wounds do heal.
It takes some time.
A new love sprouts.
The mouth is closed.
Restless heart wants to shout it out.
Fear of distant pain traps the courage.
And he might never learn for I am frozen.

Epilog
You can learn from your mistakes but you can never be sure of people's true intentions.
So I'll just close the doors of my heart and I'll put it to sleep for good.

"Repetition is the mother of learning" does not apply to relationships!

"Repetition is the mother of the dumb"

Experience has taught me that not matter what you say to others if their eyes are closed they won't hear you. I learned something else from my experience as well. If you feel that something is wrong then stop, don't go on with what you were doing to do. Don't go for this joke ... "it's better to regret something you did than regret not doing it". Trust me you don't have an instinct for nothing. I can sadly say that my instinct has proven 90% correct. I don't like that, but I learned to hear it out and not ignore it.

Reason should also be heard. Don't ignore it because your stupid heart and/or your hormones tell you something else. I broken one of my principles once. Every bone in my body told me that it was wrong, but I went on with it. I may have learned something from all the pain I received as reward for my mistake, but I am not sure it was worth it.

Mistakes will be done as they are part of the growing process. If you continue to go back to the place you left from and that broke you once, then you are the greatest fool! Smarten up, learn from your mistakes, and don't do it again! My smart physics teacher once told us in class that "repetition is the mother of the dumb". Learn this! "Repetition is the mother of learning" does not apply to relationships because people don't change. If you like repeating your mistakes in your personal life then you must deserve what is coming for you.

Happy Valentine's Day!